Too Artificial

"You can see more sincere kisses at airports than in weddings, sincere prayers at the hospital than in churches." (c)

I went with my lola and cousins to the church for simbang gabi. I was just bored, and didn't have the initiative to go to mass. I just want to be with them. i don't believed in going to church for mass, it looks so artificial for me. People go there to show that they're pious persons. There are so many rituals, you have to stand up , sit, kneel, sit, stand up, again and again. They said that it is a form of sacrificed, and I respect it but I would not do it. I have my own beliefs and how to hold on it. 

The mass could be sum up only in 5 minutes but it took 1 hour because of the rituals that i know some of the people were not paying too much attention and just doing it because they're there, its not sincere, it's fake. Their acts are not from their heart. I am wrong to judge them like that but i could see it on their actions, yes, i would also be judged because of my actions but hey, you're doing it just for what? At least, i show my true self and inside I have something that I'm holding on.

Another thing is that the priest was announcing those persons who gave donations to the church, for what? for others to know that they're doing religious acts, that they're helping others for God. i just didn't get it. It's just for display/facade; if you really wanted to help sincerely you wouldn't put your name or you would not mention it to anyone to be proud and to brag.

I just believed that I don't have to show and tell to everyone that I have faith on Him. It's just me the only one who would know what's really true or not, between me and Him.

-kdm