Reciprocality

Reciprocal. It only exists in numbers. But in a relationship it would never exist.

People don’t know the real me. Its really hard to move and to act like i’m not affected. The painful truth is im totally affected by their bullshits. I really don’t know what to do. Im lost now. Im weak. Damn. I don’t want to be like this. Im being fucked up. Their affecting me too much.

FRIEND. What happened to us?

I don’t know. And i know that you know why you’re acting like that to me. Shit. Fuck. Damn. I wanna end up myself or move into a place where no one knows me and start a new life there. If only it’s just simple as that but i have my family who would worry about me. :( 

-kdm

Bitch ka friend!

"Whatever you do and whatever you say, people will always have something to say."
 

Kaibigan kita kaya sinasakyan kita sa mga trip mo. Kahit hindi ako ganun nagiging ganun ako kase xempre yun ang connection naten sa isa’t-isa. Kala mo kung yun ako talaga pero hindi, yun ako pag kasama kita. Iba ko sa ibang tao kase nakadepende sa tao kung anong klase ng pakisama ang i-aapply naten

Natatandaan mo yung persona, iba tayong tao depende sa mga kaharap naten,. hindi yun kaplastikan, ibinabagay lang nagten kung paano tayo aarte.

dito na lang, pag tinuloy ko pa to kung ano pa ang masasabi ko sayo. TRAITOR! Sayang lang ako sayo!

You only think that way.

Do u think i am not affected? Do you think i'm not hurt? DO you think I'm numb? Huh??? 

I don't know how should i act... I can feel it now.. I think i love you.. But i dont know. . . 

I dreamed of you tonight. You walked down into the dark and black atmosphere just to fetch me. U were always there. But i didn't say anything, coz its just not me. 

I miss youu.. Do u know that? Huh? I'm not numb. I'm also a human. You asked me before "tao ka ba!? Ha!". Then, i was just crying inside to tame myself that i should not act vulnerable and weak.. I want to pull out the hell in me that time. I wanna burst. But my id tells me that i shouldn't. Keep calm. My ego tells me, ."You shouldn't be acting dumb, just numb!." So I just wept when you're not around. I carried those all d time with me.

The people who didn't say anything are the ones who care the most!!! (c)

You will only fully accept the person when u understand him/her despite of his/her evil-like attitude...

-kdm