This feeling. I hate this..full of
uncertainty, heart pumping and very nervous of what will happen or what
happened--I don’t have any idea. I don’t want to expect any and as much as
possible I want to expect of all worst case scenarios or prepare myself for the
tragic or what..shit !jaymark,
Hindi matatapos ang isang sem ng walang ni isa kong kaibigan na umaalis. Isa-isa sila..unti-unti nababawasan..
una, sila mike at kuya chrisnung 1st year, 1st sem palang
kame ay umalis na.. sumunod ay si Kuya Jim na nung 2nd year, 1st
sem ay umalis. Sinundan din naman ni Dhen nung hindi pa natatapos ang 2nd
year, 2nd sem eh namaalam na din..si Jon ng #rd year 1st sem, tapos ngayon.. ang pinakamabigat..
shit!!! 2 sa lalaking pinakamalalapit sa puso namen. Si AC at Jaymark.
Winter
has come upon me unexpectedly.
<Angdayaniyo!!! Alamniyoyun!! Bakit kayo
naunang umalis, hindi ba pwedeng sabay-sabay tayo..>
The fact that they won't come back anymore,
it makes me feel like I’ve lost my siblings. This is the hard part of being so attach
to someone that when they leave you, they will also bring a piece of your heart.
I hate you guys. You shouldn’t have come close to me.
One more thing, do you know that I’m not
having a hard time in “moving on” when it comes to romantic love. I’ve been
there and successfully overcome it. But, you came into my life, and brought
chaos into it. You disturb the “sleeping goddess” inside me.I don’t want to
attach myself anymore to someone. Because when I do, this happens, only pain,
sweet memories with bitter feelings invades my being.
The only thing that I could do is to accept
that they won’t be with you forever. People come and go. Everything changes. Change
is important to maintain balance and harmony. And at any moment, anyone or
anything that you love may leave you accidentally or intentionally. So, enjoy
the moment while it lasts.
You know what, I really wanted to cry out
loud. This is the first time that you would make me cry.
As the cliché goes, “we cannot stop the
falling of leaves of a tree”. It is essential so that there will be available
spaces for the new ones. But those fallen leaves will leave marks in the bough.
I so love you guys. I may not explicitly show
it to you or to anyone but deep here inside me is where you belong. Let my
memoirs stay in your heart.
Thank you for everything. You’ve done a lot
for me, to develop
When I get married. I promise that you will
be there guys and promise me also that you’ll come to witness the most
important day in my life. Be there with me. :’)
-kdm
