Leaves left.

This feeling. I hate this..full of uncertainty, heart pumping and very nervous of what will happen or what happened--I don’t have any idea. I don’t want to expect any and as much as possible I want to expect of all worst case scenarios or prepare myself for the tragic or what..shit !jaymark,

Hindi matatapos ang isang sem ng walang ni isa kong kaibigan na umaalis. Isa-isa sila..unti-unti nababawasan.. una, sila mike at kuya chrisnung 1^st year, 1^st sem palang kame ay umalis na.. sumunod ay si Kuya Jim na nung 2^nd year, 1^st sem ay umalis. Sinundan din naman ni Dhen nung hindi pa natatapos ang 2^nd year, 2^nd sem eh namaalam na din..si Jon ng #rd year 1st sem, tapos ngayon.. ang pinakamabigat.. shit!!! 2 sa lalaking pinakamalalapit sa puso namen. Si AC at Jaymark.

Winter has come upon me unexpectedly.

<Angdayaniyo!!! Alamniyoyun!! Bakit kayo naunang umalis, hindi ba pwedeng sabay-sabay tayo..>

The fact that they won't come back anymore, it makes me feel like I’ve lost my siblings. This is the hard part of being so attach to someone that when they leave you, they will also bring a piece of your heart. I hate you guys. You shouldn’t have come close to me.

One more thing, do you know that I’m not having a hard time in “moving on” when it comes to romantic love. I’ve been there and successfully overcome it. But, you came into my life, and brought chaos into it. You disturb the “sleeping goddess” inside me.I don’t want to attach myself anymore to someone. Because when I do, this happens, only pain, sweet memories with bitter feelings invades my being.

The only thing that I could do is to accept that they won’t be with you forever. People come and go. Everything changes. Change is important to maintain balance and harmony. And at any moment, anyone or anything that you love may leave you accidentally or intentionally. So, enjoy the moment while it lasts.

You know what, I really wanted to cry out loud. This is the first time that you would make me cry.

As the cliché goes, “we cannot stop the falling of leaves of a tree”. It is essential so that there will be available spaces for the new ones. But those fallen leaves will leave marks in the bough.

I so love you guys. I may not explicitly show it to you or to anyone but deep here inside me is where you belong. Let my memoirs stay in your heart.

Thank you for everything. You’ve done a lot for me, to develop

When I get married. I promise that you will be there guys and promise me also that you’ll come to witness the most important day in my life. Be there with me. :’)

-kdm